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been working non-stop!
for the two weeks even on saturday and sunday hais!
good thing is my last day of work is on next wednesday!
and next thursday will be my first dental consultation with Dr Boey for my braces!
really hope i dun need to extract any teeth haisss.
wahaha so mei dun say i keep saying i want to make braces but nvr do ar.
now i going to do my first step!
but i guess she nvr read my blog already =S

anyway, sometimes i really envy of those people who can talk to anyone effortlessly.
i just find it really hard sometimes. hais.
i just want people to feel happy around me ; comfortable around me.
that's all i want. not any benefits.

i feel i'm really having low self-esteem and no confidence.
cause maybe i place too much emphasis on my negative thoughts.
yet, i can't think of any positive things about myself.
i hope one day i can really walk out of my 'shell'.

jiayou to myself!
and jiayou to people who are also fighting against these problems ><.

suddenly i felt life is like meaningless.
i'm quite lost now.
i don't have any goals or aims now hais.
and everyday i wake up there is nothing i'm looking forward to.
really hope someone will one day someone will liven me up so i got something to look forward to.
haha.


by the way, i feel quite bad to keep asking them for my things back.
but i'm going to persistent.
i'm not going to be eaten again.

hu die jie jie really the cutest girl alive on earth.
hahaha.


anyway, been working from 8.30am to 7.15pm almost everyday.
super tired but i feel really satisfied.
cause i earning money by myself!
and i get to know a friend
i realise he is peh thiam hee best friend
what a small world! hahaha.



and today got ppl say i look mixed blood again. =.=
guess is malaysia or indonesia again =/..
but got someone tt i come from australia.
wow that makes me really high LOL.


tml is ch ord wahaha congrats!!
welcome him to civilian world.


nth to write le haha end here!

today i wake up in the morning.
and i heard on the radio of how to attract opposite sexes.
LOL.

bascially, for female if u want to attract male u have to wear short sleeves/ sleevesless shirt and also wear skirt or pants that is above knee cap.

and for male, basically you jus need to be one head taller than the girls for some mutual attraction.

LOL. feel quite sorry for the females cause they like need to do so much things while we just need to be one head taller than the females. haha.

random post XD.

hmm this happen when i was on my 2nd day of work.
i was doing my labeling job which needed to use penknife and tear out the stickers.
cause it's damn sticky, i need to use alot of strength to tear it out.
i think i carelessly miss the sticker and swing it on my right thumb.
the whole meat peel off.
and the blood flowing non-stop.
this is the first time i flow out so much blood!

ended up with 3 days MC.
and stitches on my right thumb.
the doctor says going to have scar already.
haha i think it's quite cool to have one scar on my thumb ba.
"trying to be positive"

anw the stitching experience is quite scary.
its pain and i can see my blood oozing out.
LOL.
but quite interesting.
i think i'm quite brave coz i still able to remain very calm and i didn't faint. XD
the nurse and the doctor scare i faint. LOL.
the nurse sees my wound also don't dare to see. hahaha.

hmmm but i'm really sorry to the company.
employed me to help out but end up i'm a burden to them.
so sorry.
i will do double effort work when i go back on monday wahahaha.



this is my poor little thumb =( hahaha.

my current mood:

Should i make braces?
I ask alot of people.

Some think i shouldn't make cause
1) braces look really toot.
2) my teeth now give me unique characteristics. silly look i suppose T__T.
3) expensive!
4) like the way i am now.

Some think i should make cause
1) the teeth really affecting me how i think of myself.
2) for more mature-looking.
3) you won't regret
4) do what i wished to.

Personally, i really feel like making braces.
but then i think it kind of waste money and i'm not superstar or wad
and not very handsome also.
will making braces changes anything?

ahh i'm really confused if i should make or not?
hoping to get more suggestions.
honest suggestions.
rather than comment like if it is affecting me.
coz i really dunno if i shld make or not.

anyway, now i'm currently working at TeckWah warehouse.
first day, i feel quite tired already =X.
imagine 19 more days to go T___T
i must jiayou.
if i going to make braces i can use my salary to cut cost wahaha.
now everything still okay.
i hope it's the same for the next 19 working days.


and my mum coughing quite badly.
hais hope she recover soon!

and thanks my sis for handling my school fee.
i think i will really gabra if w/o u.
wahaha but time to learn to be independent.
i will learn to settle myself next time onwards hahas.


oh yah thanks ch too.
he is really nice.
he is willing to bring me out at 7am early in the morning just to show me where is my working place.
omg where to find this kind of friend hahas.
of course i rejected his offer!


ok endddddd.

maybe i shld settle by dreaming if i shld wear braces or not.
if i dream of braces within this month i will make.
if not no. =.=

haisssss

my mood now :