am i too selfish to expect that my close friend will understand me and willing to listen to me attentively?

hais..
why is it that there is nobody willing to do that?

am i too annoying?
or am i not worth of your friendship?
or am i always not very serious?
or am i lying to ppl too much and nobody willing to believe what i say?
or i am too boring until nobody interested in.

maybe it's all my own fault and i deserve it.

and i kind of really angry with myself.
i'm 21yrs old.
i still have not grown the wings to be independent.

hais..

my mood today: