yeah! i think everyone know that i finished my exams!
i'm enjoying my life now.
but i find it kinda dull.
if nobody ask me out, i will be at home using computer for a long time.

hmm i think i should plan something for me to do.
any suggestion?

i got a friend who invited me to join their queenstown community portal to help them out.
i'm really honoured that they think i'm reliable and trustable.
but i really scare i will '3mins re du'.
and if i really join now i'm kinda like taking a share of their effort which i feel not that fair to them.
but i really hope they will make it big too.
after all, my ahma lives in queenstown and it really bring alot of good old memories which i spend with my cousins and relatives.

i think i will be finding work too!
hope ppl give me some lobangs wahaha.
i'm kinda poor already.
i dun feel good that i keep taking money from my mum.
i'm 21yrs old and i want to be independent.

i realise alot of things about someone.

i feel he is really a nice guy that he just want to see the girl he like to be happy that's all.
and he didn't ask for much.
i really hope one day he will find someone that will really treasure and love him.
hais

typing all this really makes me kinda sad.
cause i have seen most of his love life.
but he never give up.
i hope it will pay off soon.

suddenly i'm thinking so much past stuff.
i really feel i changed.
i have lost my purest self.
i'm trying hard to find back myself.
it's because i had some taste of the real world.
it forces me to change not to put so much trust in ppl already.
but i still strongly believe i already had alot of genuine friends.
really thanks. if not for u guys, i will give up already.

lol i'm getting quite emotional suddenly.

sidetrack awhile
i dunno how japanese sound so nice hahas.
which i have nice voice like them =(.

anw guess i will write until here.
bye!!


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